Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Why Today?

Why today....why am I posting on our blog after a year and a half has gone by and nothing.  Not a single word! To be honest i'm not 100% sure... it isn't like I got up this morning thinking it was a good day to blog, or I have some exciting news to share;  let alone something meaningful or inspirational. I really haven't had the desire to blog or even thought about the blog itself in several months. However, after reading another blog this afternoon, nothing related to adoption, I decided to pull ours up. As I looked back through my previous post (almost like looking back at old photos) I realized how much of the process I had blocked from my thoughts. I have been so focused on what hasn't happened yet and the whys that I have forgotten to celebrate where we are now.  I like to think of myself as a positive person, I think in most situations I really do see the glass half full.  But the truth is,  I have allowed my attitude to change over time in regards to our adoption.

Question:  Why Today? 

Plan and simple we have been in the process a long 3 1/2 years. Not to mention we are STILL in the process.  Somewhere along the way I got lost in the whys and the negatives. Why isn't she home yet? Why are other families bringing their children home sooner when they started the process much later than us? I created these UGLY negative thoughts and have allowed them to set up shop. I have allowed the process to be about me. I have said many times it wasn't about me but once again I have made it about me. In the beginning it was about us....the initial talk of adoption was about how we could feed another child, we could cloth another child, we could love another child. Our hearts were pure and we truly felt we had been called to adopt and we would be doing a good thing. Over time, God changed my heart to realize it wasn't about what we had to offer but how if we allowed him to use us, he could be glorified.

So here I am writing this post because once again I have allowed the process to be about me but in a
different way. After some much needed self reflection, I am realizing slowly (sometimes it takes me awhile to get it) it is time to change!  This has been along time coming...meaningful or inspirational thoughts can happen even if she isn't home. Why am I limiting God's moving on behalf of our adoption because of my negative attitude.

Answer: Why Not Today? 

 T-o-d-a-y is a new day. A new day to find hope, a new day to share all that God has done and is doing in the process of our adoption and our life as we wait. Our adoption will happen and it will happen in God's perfect timing. It is time to meditate on the positive. I will sing His praises in all that He is doing so He may receive the glory He is due. Philippians 1:6 And I am sure of this, that he who did begin a good work, will bring it to completion at the day of Christ Jesus.

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